Dakota Rain Heffernan

Angel

You were so beautiful
God couldn’t let you go
And after all that’s in
Those books…
He’s no less selfish in his Love
Than are we
Your voice must have been too majestic
Your smile His delight
But how much more drab
Our world will be
I don’t under stand it really
It’s much less clear down here
Kind of foggy
Like a dark rain that pounds the earth
We struggle to see through the cold
and the wetness of our tears
Everyone has an answer though
And they all have to do with “God”
I think they’re just afraid
To say “God what were you thinking today…”
I’ve said it
But it will do no good
He’s stubborn and he’s bullish
Maybe he does really need the good ones
up there
to keep him company in his Eternity
of waiting for us all to come home
before the end and the beginning
that will never end
but it’s hard for us Angel
I’m standing on the beach of my soul
And I’m looking out into an ocean of emotion
And it’s so overwhelming
It scares me
I know if I give into it
If I try to gently wade in and deal with it
The depth and pull would drag me under
So I have to turn my back on the ocean
Oh I haven’t forgotten you
And I never will
I’ll hope and look forward to the day
When I can have you back again
From God
(of course He’ll complain as usual
but it will be His turn to get over things then)
And you can hold me and in your Mountain of Grace, your skies of purity
Tell me how this was all worth it
And from your lips I will be healed
Until then though pray for us
Or in any case watch out for us
(I guess praying to He who stole you
isn’t very practical)
Send us warm breezes of hope to carry us through our days
Whispers of Faith to give us strength to keep
Trudging through these dreary days
And hold us in arms of remembrance
To know we were meant to be a family
But that at the time God needed you
More than we did
To get him through his day
The trials and tribulations of running the world and all of that sort
But one day when the rain stops
We’ll pass these drenched clothes off
And stand in the first moment of Love
The sun will arise on the Horizon
And in a moment of release and tears
Suddenly the sun will be eclipsed by
An Angel brighter than Redemption
And walking towards us you
Will hold us close, wiping away the tears
And say
“Let’s go home”




Until that day
With all Love,
Your Mom and Dad
Becky and ED Heffernan

For Dakota Rain Heffernan

Ed and I found out we were pregnant right after Christmas 2000, two months after an infertility workup and one month after having a litter of eight puppies. It had taken us a little over a year. We were so excited! Our first beautiful baby. Of course, we told everyone. I dreamed and planned and loved my baby. One afternoon at work I saw a tiny streak of blood-Ed and I went to the emergency room, where we waited four agonizing hours for an answer. They said I had miscarried, and that they could not find anything but some fluid in the uterus. My little Dakota Rain was already gone. That was January 11, 2001. I don't think I will ever forget that day. Her birthday would have been August 29, 2001. She is my own special angel. Please remember her and send up a prayer on that day. And a little one for her mommy who will be missing her so much down here.
I love you Dakota.